I don’t know what I am doing yet. I do know that I need to journal to better understand myself and my body. I have pain in my left hip all the time now…for many years. The pain location and level varies. Sometimes I wonder if it is within the joint, or if it is a muscle, a tendon, or a ligament. I know it is not in my head, as surgeons have finally agreed that I have congenital defects to be the cause. I have had 2 surgeries, and a 3rd surgery has been recommended. Is another surgery the key to being pain free? Even my surgeon is not sure, but thinks the surgery is worth a shot. I just don’t know…I have had two surgeries within two years and I just need a break. I need time with family, to take vacations, and I really want to build a pool in the back yard this year!!! A pool will be good for my hip. I also need this pool, so that I can create beautiful memories with my children. I want to invite friends and family over and entertain them (with an awesome pool) during the Texas hot summer months! It is a dream I have had for so many years. Life is just flying by! I turn 40 years old this year. I want to feel young again.
POOL DESIGN, COMING SOON FALL 2021!
There is new groundbreaking data that states suppressed emotions can lead to increased physical pain. Journaling is a way to help identify these suppressed emotions. I will be providing more data on this in the future, but until I can better understand it I have decided to just start journaling and let it evolve with time. I want to believe that my mind can help me control the pain level. MIND OVER MATTER! So to avoid another surgery (for now), I need to identify emotions that I am suppressing. If you would have asked me a year ago, “what are you suppressing?” I would have said “I have no idea what you are talking about.” So…do I have suppressed emotions. I just don’t know. This journaling is very new to me and I will just have to see where it goes.