Journal #1

I don’t know what I am doing yet. I do know that I need to journal to better understand myself and my body. I have pain in my left hip all the time now…for many years. The pain location and level varies. Sometimes I wonder if it is within the joint, or if it is a muscle, a tendon, or a ligament. I know it is not in my head, as surgeons have finally agreed that I have congenital defects to be the cause. I have had 2 surgeries, and a 3rd surgery has been recommended. Is another surgery the key to being pain free? Even my surgeon is not sure, but thinks the surgery is worth a shot. I just don’t know…I have had two surgeries within two years and I just need a break. I need time with family, to take vacations, and I really want to build a pool in the back yard this year!!! A pool will be good for my hip. I also need this pool, so that I can create beautiful memories with my children. I want to invite friends and family over and entertain them (with an awesome pool) during the Texas hot summer months! It is a dream I have had for so many years. Life is just flying by! I turn 40 years old this year. I want to feel young again.



 There is new groundbreaking data that states suppressed emotions can lead to increased physical pain. Journaling is a way to help identify these suppressed emotions. I will be providing more data on this in the future, but until I can better understand it I have decided to just start journaling and let it evolve with time. I want to believe that my mind can help me control the pain level. MIND OVER MATTER! So to avoid another surgery (for now), I need to identify emotions that I am suppressing. If you would have asked me a year ago, “what are you suppressing?” I would have said “I have no idea what you are talking about.” So…do I have suppressed emotions. I just don’t know. This journaling is very new to me and I will just have to see where it goes.

3 thoughts on “Journal #1

  1. Oh oh. That doesn’t sound so good Robin (I hope I have the name right)

    I shall pray for you. I strongly believe that there is more to chronic pains or rather any pain that doctors or traditional medical science knows.

    If you are open to it I can suggest some homeopathic medicines which I think would help and you may avoid the third surgery.

    In addition to that regular meditation- Meditation: Single cure for all human suffering

    All the very best

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    1. I am up for trying anything at this point. Most of all, I am trying to be better about prayer and talking to my Father in heaven on a daily basis. I know that he is the greatest physician of all. 🙂 I pray for him to take away my pain, but I also pray for his Will to be done. Thank you for writing me. It is so encouraging.

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      1. Pray is the highest we can do Robin. He is the only healer. It is best to pray : His will be done 🙏🙏

        You might be doing it already but I shall repeat it nevertheless (I have written this in my book too) :

        Affirmations are so powerful and Paramahansa Yogananda has taught us how to affirm. After we have meditated for a while and our mind is calm say the affirmation a few times loudly and slowly more softly and then silently. That way these keep working through our subconscious mind too.

        “The light of Thy perfect health permeates the dark nooks of my bodily sickness. In all my body cells Thy healing light is shining. They are entirely well, for Thy perfection is in them.”

        This is from Metaphysical Meditations by Paramahansa Yogananda

        You can take Arnica 200 and Rhus Tox 200 alternate every four hours. That means you will take two doses of each everyday. No food 10-15 minutes before and after the medicine.

        God willing, these shall help. And you are welcome to write to me :

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